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on august 2, she’ll exactly be 5 years away from us but i could still find her inside my heart.  the memories we’ve shared are kept in the deepest core of my being..

she might not be as sucessful as many couples do in married life, but her separation from my father did not hinder her in raising all of us with worth and dignity. full of determination, faith in god and lots of sacrifices, she managed to send us to school and earned a degree..

being the youngest in the family, i know finishing my course was a great relief for my mother. after passing the board exams, i had many plans for her to show my gratitude for all that she did for me and my siblings. but only about 3 months after, she was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer. while the doctors were explaining the details of her ailment, i had to hold my breath in order not to burst into tears. i stood firm to convince her that i was okay but deep inside, my heart was aching with so much pain. i felt betrayed. the situation put my faith to test. i had many questions which god allowed me to answer while journeying with my mother. i was thankful that amidst all my doubts and frailties, he did not leave me. instead, he had given me enough time to heal the wound in my heart. the courage i saw in my mothers eyes while fighting cancer inspired me to continue giving myself to make her happy during her last days with us. very ironic but it was she who helped me understand god’s message of letting us experience the battle which we all fought with pride.  

to my mother who have devoted her life and painstakingly molded us to become what we are now, i thank her so much! she will always be an inspiration as i continue to walk my own path in life. i hope in my own ways, i made her proud of me..

i love you, i will always will..